On the sadness and disgust of unbridled, ugly, & entitled male rage, continued trauma, our broken system, & what it means for all of us.

I watched both hearings yesterday & while it is clear to me that Kavanaugh should not be confirmed not just for the credible allegation, but for his clear inability to not be partial, partisan, and vindictive, more than anything it has left me feeling...I don’t know what exactly. Some mix of gross, disgusted, and sad. ... But I just feel gross and sad. It was bearing witness to a naked ugliness, to the self-entitled rage of men, especially rich white men who refuse to be questioned. It was bearing witness to the visible pain, trauma, and terror that Dr Ford has carried for too long, the remarkable bravery and courage for her to speak out to save our country and rectify this wrong, however inadequately, and the reality that this vile, vile, man who is not entitled to and does not belong on the highest court with power over our daily lives for the rest of his natural life will nonetheless be appointed because patriarchy is still winning, because Republicans value “winning” more than principles and morals, and because most Democrats are incompetent, and because our system, marred as it is, is imploding. This is a sad, sad day.